Life is like the leaves, it's always changing!

It's getting colder and colder as we move into fall and those leaves are a changin', and so is life. A major change is about to take place in my life and it all snow balled between Thursday and Friday. I know in my last post that I stated the changes I wanted to make in my life and the goals that I created for myself. Well one decision was pretty much made for me and that is to quit my job of almost 9 years and be a stay at home mommy! I was working limited hours to begin with 4 hours a day 4 days a week 16 hours a week. As a shift manager I need full availability, but since I had my son almost a year ago that just wasn't practical for me especially since I was breast feeding him. My boss worked out a schedule for me, and my mom has been my babysitter for the past 4 years watching my daughter already. Needless to say she's ready to be grandma and it was becoming too much with her homeschooling my brother who is six. So Thursday we talked about it and there came a new possibility of putting them in day care! Not something I'm prepared nor want to do. Simply because it would be a waste of money! Daycare is expensive!!! Not to mention I wouldn't make enough, so basically I would be working to pay for daycare and for someone else to watch my kids when I can do it myself and know they are safe and happy! Well then Friday my boss called about another situation at work where one of our other managers quit. So basically came the need for me to work more which he's been pushing for months because he is running a business and needs people to work. He has accommodated me for so long that it was time that I started to give back. But I can't. I explained my situation and was honest and his advice to me was to quit. Because if I stay on the schedule I have there's a possibility of getting even less hours for me. He's hiring more people and they will get the hours. So I talked to my husband and made a decision. My last two weeks as a shift manager at Arby's starts tomorrow! Now here's the big question. How exactly do I feel about all of this happening so fast? Well I'm scared I've been working since I was a kid and making my own money. Now I will have to be 100 percent dependant on my husband. I've always enjoyed making my own money and that was kind of the last Independence I had left lol because my kids take up all of my time :). Which is fine because I love them, they're cute (most of the time)! I also don't want it to be a problem in my marriage with all the pressure being put on my husband he works super hard! Other than that I will miss the people I work with and the customers I interacted with on a daily basis. On the other side of it I'm super excited to already get one of my goals out of the way and move a step in the direction I'm ready for my life to take! I'm excited about being with my kids and knowing they finally get their mother 100 percent and they can count on that! So that's where I'm at so far in my journey! Definitely exciting!! I still am going to try to find something from home to try and make some of my own money, so that will be my next step!


Onto another topic. Something that truly bugs me. Let me start off by saying that in awaiting Addison Moore's 5th installment of the Celestra series I bought some more books from amazon to get through the next month to take my mind off of it lol. I started reading some of M. Leighton's books which I enjoyed especially the Madly series!! I can't wait for the next installment! But also I was contacted via facebook by another huge Addison Moore fan, and she asked me to check out her book. The author is Ella James and her book is Stained. Well I read it and enjoyed the heck out of it! So I stumbled over to amazon to write a review, which I also decided to do more of because of what bugs me! That is that people write a perfectly nice review but only give like 3 stars?....I'm like what!! Then their reason for it is totally bogus!! Now I realize that these authors are self publishing and self promoting. They get their sales by word of mouth, self promotion, and amazon! And the rating of a review does matter to some people! For example when I went to give a review on Ms. James book somebody gave her a good review and 3 stars b/c their were a "few" errors in the book!!....WHAT!! seriously? you downloaded a book onto a kindle knowing it's self publishing author it's not that big of a deal...At least if it bothers you that much give 4 stars. I believe you should write a review about the story itself not the occasional misspelled or extra word! You get that anywhere! LOL the ironic thing about that particular review though was that her grammar wasn't the best either in the review...so do you think I commented? You betcha!!! There was another review that said the book was great, but they just never give 5 stars!!! This just frustrates me simply for the author when they enjoy what they do and they rely on stuff like that...not 100 percent but it helps and people like that just suck!! Now if you really didn't like the book and your just giving your honest opinion that's one thing. I just wish people would stop being soooo picky! For this reason I base my choice of reading on the description and whether or not it interests me and if the majority of the reviews are awesome that helps!! That's my ranting about that lol. Needless to say though is I have another author to follow and another series to add to my list. Next up I'm going to start on the Reaping by M. Leighton!

Ocean Waves

Aaaaah, I love the ocean!! I'm currently on I guess you would call a church retreat in Myrtle Beach, SC. Waking up and looking off my balcony to a beautiful view of the ocean is so refreshing and relaxing!! If I could do it every day I totally would! I only live about an hour away from the beach, but I never find the time to go or have anyone available to go with. Aside from having a week and a half away from reality of home and work I'm getting to spend quality stress free time with my children which I'm enjoying!! Also being here going to church everyday and being around like minded people of faith is amazing to me! It truly is an amazing experience! I learn so much about myself and love being around my church family to bring me back to the real reality! I love my faith and what I believe in!! I hate to have to leave in a few days, but until then I fully intend to enjoy every minute of it and the fellowship! This is the time of year I look forward to every year! We all get so burdened by life and everything going on around us from day to day we take a lot for granted instead of rejoicing and looking at all the blessings in our lives. So I definitely take this time to reflect on the passed year and set goals for the coming year. It's kind of like my new years haha! So I'm going to share with you my goals for the next year. By next year I mean starting now until next October! First I want to apply what I've learned on my trip to my life in general! By that I mean strengthen my relationship with God, and really applying certain things to my life and behavior. Also I want to continue to strengthen my marriage it's on a good path and I want it to stay that way. Be a better mother! I'm a good mom I love my kids more than anything and they are my life. But I know I make mistakes and I want to learn from them and learn some patience to be a better mother and role model for my kids! Finally I want to find something that I can do from home making a little extra income while being a stay at home mom (which I'm currently not). I really feel my kids need me in that capacity as I need them. It's not that I dislike working out of my home because I do. Even though my job drives me crazy at times it has been my second home since I was 16 and I've always worked hard at it. Now I feel it's time to move on and do what I love to do the most and that's be the mother I was meant to be :). At the same time I love making money and having that independence so I really want to find that extra income! Last but not least stop procrastinating and just get it done!! I'm the type of person that dips my toes in the water before getting in and sometimes that toe barely grazes the water! I would love to just move past fears I may have or anticipation of possible failure and just jump into life sometimes! Any who those are my basic goals for the next year! We'll see how it goes ;)!!